I admit it...what's to say...
I'll relive it...without pain...
Backstreet lover on the side of the road.
I got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode.
I got a sixteen gauge buried under my clothes, I play...
Once upon a time I could control myself.
once upon a time I could lose myself,
try and mimic what's insane.
I am in it...where do I stand?.
Oh, Indian summer and I hate the heat.
I got a backstreet lover on the passenger seat.
I got my hand in my pocket, so determined, discreet...I pray...
Once upon a time I could control myself.
once upon a time I could lose myself.
You think I got my eyes closed.
But I'm looking at you the whole fucking time...
once upon a time I could control myself.
Once upon a time I could lose myself.
Once upon a time I could love myself.
Once upon a time I could love you.

Son, she said, have I got a little story for you.
What you thought was your daddy was nothing but a...
While you were sitting home alone at age thirteen.
Your real daddy was dying, sorry you didn't see him, but I'm glad we
talked...
Oh I, oh, I'm still alive
oh, I'm still alive
oh, I'm still alive
Oh, she walks slowly, across a young man's room.
She said I'm ready...for you.
I can't remember anything to this very day.
except the look, the look...
Oh, you know where, now I can't see, I just stare...
I, I'm still alive.
Hey I, but, I'm still alive.
Hey I, boy, I'm still alive.
Hey I, I, I'm still alive.
Is something wrong, she said,
Well of course there is.
You're still alive, she said,
and do I deserve to be?
Is that the question,
And if so...if so...who answers...who answers...
I, oh, I'm still alive
Hey I, oh, I'm still alive
Hey I, but, I'm still alive

Don't even think about reaching me. I won't be home.
Don't even think about stopping by. Don't think of me at all.
I did a what I had to do. If there was a reason, it was you.
Aaah, don't even think about getting inside. Voices in my head. Ooh, voices.
I got scratches all over my arms. One for each day since I fell apart.
I did, oh, what I had to do. If there was a reason it was you.
Footsteps in the hall... It was you, you.
Oh, pictures on my chest... It was you. It was you...
I did a what I had to do. Oh, and if there was a reason... Oh, there wasn't no reason. no.
And if there's something you'd like to do. Oh, just let me continue to blame you.
A footsteps in the hall... It was you, you.
Oh, pictures on my chest... It was you, you. Oh